Pretending all the way.


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Sep 20, 2014
@ 8:08 pm
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I’m scared
I’m falling apart
The days are going by
So fast
And I still don’t know
What I’m doing


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Sep 20, 2014
@ 6:44 pm
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Dreams Burn

I’m scared of the future 
But I’m scarred by the past 
And if time is the suture 
I’m not healing too fast 

I have lost my direction 
And I’m losing myself 
In a World of perfection 
Of fame and of wealth 

As I once was a dreamer 
Like I once too was young
But dreams burn like a fever 
In the land of the numb


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Sep 20, 2014
@ 6:38 pm
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Board

I’ve been falling apart 
Just a little each day 
Simply standing on start 
While the rest of them play 
With a lump in my throat 
And my heart in my hands
And I know it’s my go
But I’m scared where I’ll land

We are laying it down 
With the rules folded up 
And the pieces in check 
But there’s something that’s lost 
You’ll monopolise towns 
And you tell me to trust 
Like there’s still something left 
From the pieces we lost 

I tried it all once
Just to give it my all
I let down my cold front
And I let myself fall
But it didn’t work out
It hurt more than you’d know
So I slyly bowed out
And I missed a few go’s

We are laying it down 
With the rules folded up 
And the pieces in check 
But there’s something that’s lost 
You’ll monopolise towns 
And you tell me to trust 
Like there’s still something left 
From the pieces we lost 

So I’m standing here still
And I’m caught on my breath
And I’m losing my will
To struggle on until death

I’m so bored of these games  
And second-guessing the rules 
When I think I could play 
I just slip up and fall 

This life isn’t a game 
And my heart’s not a piece 
You can pick and reclaim 
When you’re on a good streak 


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Sep 20, 2014
@ 8:49 am
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The Sound Of Breaking Hearts

You can hear the breaking hearts
Through the silence of the night
It’s like the shattering of glass
Mixed with silent muffled cries
You can hear the breaking hearts
If you really want to try
Like the pages torn apart
And flying too close to the light


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Sep 19, 2014
@ 6:41 pm
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Damaged Goods

We’re all damaged goods 
Some are waiting to break
Everyone’s damaged goods
Taking all they can take 
We’re all broken models 
Made to be second hand 
We’re all faulty models 
Standing all we can stand 


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Sep 19, 2014
@ 6:35 pm
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Dreams

I keep trying to believe in the dreams that I’ve had 
Like if I just keep faith they might land in my lap 

I’m too stubborn to break but too fragile to last 
So I’m counting down days and I’m watching them pass 

I don’t want to accept that I might not shine bright
To give in and admit all the voices were right 

I would work for my future but I’m lost at the start 
I’m being torn by the paths of my mind and my heart 

I’m being told I need money and that money is life 
But I just can’t give up and give into the strife 

So I’ll live for my dream and I’ll die for the word 
As while I can die a dream can not be burned 


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Sep 19, 2014
@ 6:24 pm
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Push Away Love

I don’t know what was right 
I don’t know what was wrong 
All I know is each night 
I replay the same song 

And I think of the ways 
That I’m fucking it up 
Throughout every day 
When I just want to love 

But I’m running away 
And I’m pushing them back 
And the words that I say 
Do not match how I act 

And I lock my heart up 
As I’m too scared to break 
So I push away love 
As I drown in self hate 

I just can’t understand 
How I’m worth all that work 
So let go of my hand 
Before I make it all worse


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Sep 19, 2014
@ 11:45 am
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Fade

These haunted woods 
With Devils drops 
Where children laugh 
As paths trail off 

Where foot trod lanes 
Cut trees in half 
As summer days 
Fade into past 

This is the place 
Where leaves fall down 
And seasons change 
With silent sounds 

These haunted woods 
In frosty haze 
Become the place 
Where childhood fades 


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Sep 18, 2014
@ 7:47 pm
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I used to try to fill my heart with the love of others. But, now I choose to fill it with only hope - hope that one day someone will take over and fill it for me. I’m sure it’s a simple repair job for the right person.


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Sep 18, 2014
@ 7:35 pm
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Please Stay

Don’t tell me to smile
And then turn to leave
You say it’s the hardest thing to do
So stay, please stay
Just one more night
Just one more day

Give me time
To take it all in
Your smell, your smile, your love
Just a couple more days
Might be enough
So stay, please stay